I've been holding off on making a post like this for quite some time.

I could sit and say this and that about Heavy Clown but that will accomplish nothing. All I will do is address the situation.
Somewhere in the course of the Rydas Scrubby tour Heavy Clown managed to lose ALL of the Rydas Raffle money. As it was explained to me, we had raised almost 500$. How they lost all of Rydas money, along with a thousand of J's money, I have no idea. But as explained to me (by Heavy himself) they did.

I could get into all the shit surrounding the situation, but I was devistated by the fact that they money had been(wasted, spent, lost, misplaced?) it was my responsiblity and I had intrusted Heavy with it. Heavy for a short period had a "fuck the internet" attitude, and I couldn't even deal directly with him concerning the raffle, I had to deal with his homie because Heavy could give a fuck less.

Time passed by and the raffle prizes were supposedly given out. I was increasingly distressed by the fact that neither Heavy, nor Jeckle Master were making the slightest attempts to arrange return of the money. Well, I finally took away access on the site from Heavy. I felt I had no choice since he had made no attempts to return the funds he owed.

Well, after I did that he seemed ever so willing to talk to me (for the first time in quite a while). The agreement we came to was this. A: Heavy Clown would cease to exist for a while, he would use a alias and he SAID he was just going to be about clown love. B: The money was to be returned at the end of the month.
Well I made the little asylum post like he wanted.
I even restored access. Shit was ok, till one day he decided to deface the Rydas page for unknown reasons. He put shit like "Not a Seeds of the Anus" site and various other shit. Coming from some one that got BACKSTAGE as a Seed, that got perks and oppurtunities as a Seed, and the fact that Heavy willingly accepted those, yet was the first person to diss them I found appauling. Not to mention the fact that he was "all about clown love now?". I know the Seeds were a failure, but to deny our involment would be bullshit. Like it or not WE WERE. Well needless to say I told him I didn't like it. His response was to delete various things on Rydas including my past post.

And then he IMd me, and I explained I was going to be honest. I was tired of bullshit, and I was tired of avoiding the issue and I was going to get on here and tell people the truth. He was taken back, and then promised PROMPT return of the money. Monday was when he said it would be returned. Well shortly after he got on the phone and explained he was starting his own site (along with his own label) and he was going to return the money Friday.

Fine, I thought... I can wait...
But then people started coming to me.
Dr. Gigglez came to me saying Heavy kept calling (Dr. Gigglez is on Rydas Records) and Heavy wanted Dr. Gigglez on his label. Now, since Heavy had ALLREADY done this and I had allready confronted him I had to wonder what was up. Then SLeet told me that Heavy asked him to work on his site. Then J-Scrub said he had been contacted by "heavy's manager" who I KNOW for a fact to have been Heavy since he was talking to some one else at the time and he tried to get J-Scrub to leave Rydas Records and be on his site.

Well, it became clear to me. Heavy was using the last few days his "grace period" as it were to undermine Rydas. I talked to a few people about the situation, and they agreed. He was dangling the money he OWED over our heads, and then using it as free reign to do what ever he wished. Yes, I even promised him affiliating with Rydas and his new shit. What am I supposed to do, when you got some one that won't pay 500$ they owe? I know how I'll handle it if I ever see his bitch ass but that's another story.

Slowly during the period of time that FALSE promises were made concerning Rydas, Rydas has slipped farther into a hole. You see the Raffle was supposed to be over at the beginning of February. Heavy stalled... and stalled...and stalled. When exactly was the money lost? I can't say, but in this light the constant stalling does seem odd to say the least.

But, here is what it came down to. Heavy has the money, no doubt about that was ever raised. He constantly was telling me about new equipment, and a new 500$ server he was getting for his site (gee sounds REMARKABLY like the amount that belonged to rydas),and yet Rydas had yet to see it's money. Well, in light of Heavy's apparent attempts to undermine the site I decided I couldn't afford to allow him to string me along with promises of money to be paid in the future (when he clearly had it now) while he continued to try and pillage the site.

So, while people IMd me and asked why I hadn't kicked Heavy off Rydas yet...etc... I bit my tongue, with some I took the time to explain that I HAD to try and deal with Heavy as long as he had Rydas money. But, I set the date clearly in my mine. Monday, he promised the money Friday, I knew it was well within his means, and I could wait till Monday but no later. Well about a hour ago I got a call.

"Hey this is Heavy bla bla bla"...."Can you wait two more weeks I'm going to pay Psychopathic the thousand you owe them"...
I said..."No I can't wait two more weeks".
To which he replied, "well I gave you a chance".
A chance for what? To be strung along waiting for Heavy to return the money until Rydas can no longer support its self?

So here is the deal. Heavy and Jeckle Master are no longer ANY part of Rydas.com. None what so ever. Various other shit aside, you can not lose 500$ belonging to a site (in case you are wondering the raffle money was going to George {Heavy} and that was my mistake, but regardless his responsiblity to provide Rydas with that money), and expect me to sit idly by.

Now, losing the money was MY FAULT, I take person responsiblity and you all have the right to be pissed at me. But, you ninjas showed that you did care, and that is enough to keep me going. I WILL keep Rydas alive. Fortunately a little of the Rydas Raffle money came directly to me, so I have been able to keep Rydas alive, and can do so more another month.
Thanks to gorman we now have another server up and runnning (whooo woooo) so now if we can get this server squared away we should be fine. Not as nice as if we could have used the full 500$ for Rydas at one time, but that's life isn't it? I also promise you guys that I won't ever ask money from any of you again. I had my back against the wall, and quite frankly I was unsure if anyone gave a fuck about Rydas. Well, fortunately I got enough money to keep going for a little while and I now know you ninjas DO care about Rydas and that's all I need to keep going.

Now, this is directed to you Heavy. You can lie and bullshit and what ever. But no matter what I just said you still OWE RYDAS 500$. And if you EVER fucking decide to return it, I will make that known. But, I have continued on without you, and all the bullshit you cause. NOW! I will keep rydas alive, and I will return the money to Rydas MYSELF. But that means one thing.
That you will OWE ME THE 500$. And mother fucker, I considered you my homie... I thought you were, until all the backstabbing, lies and THEIVING started. Now, now if I even run into you, you'd better have the money or it's coming out of your ass.

Now, one MAJOR reason I kept all this a secret was because I know many people look up to Heavy. I also know many others know better than to do that, but I didn't wish to "ruin" him in anyones eyes. And to be totally honest I wanted safe return of the money. I clung to some false hope that if I didn't get him mad, he might out of the goodness of his heart (kind of a oxymoron) he might pay what he owed. But, I can only let so much pass without doing something about it. You can judge me for my actions, I know for a fact I was a fucking moron for trusting Heavy and allowing the money to be lost. You can even judge me for what I said about Heavy, but believe me if all I wished to do was give Heavy a bad name, I would have said a lot more about other shit and a lot less about the raffle.